This movie was freaken awesome!

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SAw it yesterday with my buddies and , we went to the Northridge mall. So 2 out of three of us found the movie fantastical and the other vote can't be included due to default (she knocked out *sweat drop*). But either way I advice people to go see it, givfe me your thoughts

~Ayasha

Warning: Rant...


Well this is my space for free venting. In the event that this fucking university wants to fuck me over one more time, I swear I am gonna blow this place to smithereens, (if I haven't sold my zippo lighter to them first). I don't have any money for books yet. I had to beg my dad for the funds, I know that he cares and will help whenever I need it...but its just difficult and frustrating that you still depend on parents and make a claim to be independent.


ALL I want to do i just tell people to fuck off and leave me alone. In that respect that would hurt peoples feelings and then they take it the wrong way and thus having people just urked at you. I think I am just falling into my defense mechanisms and pushing people away. I find myself confused all the time. I want the solitude and the company of others all at the same time. I really think this isn't good for my brain. (Sigh) Who really reads this shit any way. I might just be a passing glance and a click away from a deletion... No I don't do this for attention I already get enough of that already..see above...

What I should be doing is writing my fucking Final that was due god knows when over the summer, but I can't because I have petty insecure, harmful, mean thoughts about people and I can't seem to focus. Recently I called a Suicide hotline, out of curiosity of course, and I explained my sucky situation with family and school and my fucking petty shit hole life... to in response the operator responded well there isn't much that I can provide for you so have a good night. Once I heard of the sound of the clicking of a receiver I thought "wow...I poured my life unto you and you cast it off," oh well so much for self esteem.

Thank you governmental support programs!! (heres the middle finger for you) have a nice day.


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So this is new,

Gonna make this brief, Anime Expo this year: totally awesome. Had a great time, took my two Nieces, they had a good time. Maricuz came with her boyfriend and his friend to stay at my place. Kevin and Bryan you guys are the coolest, love making new friends. I'll be posting some of my fave pics and highlights I enjoyed. Like for example I know now that I really like AX idol because now I have a fave amateur singer that won AX Idol last year and came back adn sang again this year. Pamela Moss your the shit!!! She is singing here below "fairy dreaming" a new fave song I love. I can't get enough of it, so here she is at masquerade [link] . It makes me want to do something epic like save the world or something...ok yea I'm weird...but it's cool

This week I spent it all mostly at 's house. and then on Wednesday we and and Vanessa went to see Harry Potter: the half blooded prince. That was awesome too but of course they butchered the book but I forgive them because the movie was equally funny so I didn't miss the book too much.

Now I be home now and bored out of my mind. Once again it's coming to that time again where the date of my birth ensues.. lol Jk It's not that epic. I'm turning 22 this Tuesday. woot woot.. lol Lets pretend it's exciting come on! lolol sorry I home alone right now and hyper. So anywho I am gonna go run off now and sing my new fave song!! Bye bye!

~Ayasha~

Hello Everyone,

I'm sure you all must have heard the horrible news that The King of Pop Michael Jackson Has Passed away a couple of hours ago June 25, 2009 at the age of 50. I hurt so bad to have to accept this tragedy. He was well loved and adored by many. He is so important to the people he touched and very very important to me. He is my idol and everyone who knows me knows that I truly adored the man he was and the beautiful things he's done for this world.

This entry isn't going to be a history lesson for anyone but Its my way of dealing with his death and sharing with others how much he meant to me.

My earliest memory of Micheal was being in my mom's bed watching Moonwalker on tape over and over. Since I am the youngest in my family my sisters and brother has to deal with my monotonous singing and dancing to him. I wanted to travel the world and Do things like he did with helping all those children. He literally healed the world (no pun intended). I recall that I wanted to be a singer and dancer just like him when I grew up. And I always thought that he was the prettiest girl I've seen...Well until my mom had to explain to me that she was a he, at which I responded "then I want to be a boy so I "can" be just like Mick" . I remember fond memories of growing up with my Nephew Cory and we were trying so hard to work "the Lean" from smooth criminal. I might add that yes I had many failed attempts. lol I always had this plan about meeting him one day. that we can be kindred spirits in writing music and we could write one song together for fun. He was gonna teach me the Moonwalk (help me prefect it ) and we would understand each others eccentricities. It was a big dream for a kid like me but I still hold it close and is very dear to me.

I have so many things I want to say right now...but I can't seem to stop myself from feeling so sad at the moment.

For now this is what I want to say: Michael Jackson I love you and I hope that where ever you are you can do all the things that makes you happy and that you remember that you are heavily loved.

~Ashlee

I just wanna say...

CONGRATULATIONS to and on graduating today. I am so proud of you and I hope that you go on and do awesome things. Obviously this isn't good bye or anything, but this is my way of saying I love you guys and now you have the freedoms to accomplish the great things you were meant in life to do. (HUGS AND KISSES) You guys are the best!


~Ashlee